Deanna M. Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 last night. She had been getting CPT-11 for the past 2 months and we found out 2 weeks ago that it was helping, but the cancer had spread to her brain. She was so tired from all the chemo she's received over the past year we had to stop teh chemo. Her body was so weak and frail. Her breathing had gotten increasingly worse the past month and she was so uncomfortable. It seemed no matter how much meds they gave her it didn't relieve her. I brought her to the hospital last Monday to try and get her breathing straightenend out and it seemed to help. She went home on her request on Wednesday. She had a great day on Wednesday, but unfortunately by Thursday the breathing was getting bad again. Friday night she told me she was ready to go, she didn't want to be on this earth anymore and suffering like this. On Saturday she woke up from a nap and her color was horrible. She was blueish. I spoke to the doctor and we decided it would be best to go to the hospital. Unfortunately we didn't have hospice at home yet because she had started brain radiation. We took her to the hospital by ambulance, her breathing got worse and worse. At the ER the only way they said could completely help her was a ventilator which she did not want. So they sedated her with morphine and got her into a room on the oncology floor. She held on while her 2 sisters and brother flew in from Canada. We were all there when she took her final breaths holding her hands. I am going to miss her so much. THanks to all you, you all got me through that horrible beginning time when everything is so new and scary. I pray for all of you. And still come here every couple of days to read. I pray for a cure for this awful beast of a disease. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Donna G Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 I am so sorry Deanna. Your Moms suffering is over but I know it is hard for you and the family right now. May you find comfort and peace. Donna G Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, I am so very sorry about your mother. I wish you strength to get through the days ahead. Rochelle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shirleyb Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, I am so sorry your mother has passed. My heart goes out to you and your family. I pray that God will be with you through this time of grief and pain. I am thankful your family had time to get to her before she left and that she knew she was so loved by all of you. Her death has left a void in your life that cannot be filled. I am so sorry. May God give you peace and comfort in the days, weeks, and months to follow. Keep the faith. Keep her memories close to your heart. She will always be with you in spirit. Watch for her and you will see the signs that she has only left this body, but her spirit will always be with you. Much love to you and your family. Shirley Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gerbil runner Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, I'm so very sorry to hear your mom has passed. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Connie B Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Dear Andrea, Oh Sweetie, I am SO SORRY to hear mom lost her very hard battle with this beast. Please know your in my prayers. I am so very sorry! She will always be in your heart. Much Love and Warm and Gentle Hugs, Connie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, my heart goes out to you in your loss of your mom. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fay Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, Your Mom's story and my Mom's are so similar. I'm sorry for your loss. PM me if you need to talk. Faylene Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Debaroo Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Oh, Deanna, I am so sorry. If there is anything I can do, please pm me. I just don't know what to say...I'm here, and nearby, if you need someone to talk to. Please feel free to do so. I will PM you my phone number, and use it whenever you need, or want to. Deb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shelliemacs Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 my heart breaks reading your post because I remember that pain. I am so very sorry. I wish I could offer words of comfort to you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank Lamb Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna.Im so very,very sorry.Prayers to you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pritchie Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Pamela Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ginnyde Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, Please accept my deepest sympathy. My Mother died in 1968 and I still miss her. Nobody loves you so unconditionally like your Mother. Time does turn the tears of memory into the smiles of memory. Ginny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
niececola Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Dear Deanna, I am so sorry to hearing of your mother's passing. My heart aches for you. Prayers are being said for you and your family. Love, Denise Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rick Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, I am so sorry and will be praying for you and your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, I'm so sorry. I know your pain and experience so well. When I read your post my stomach felt the knots and sadness as if I had gone through it with you. I'm here for you if you need someone to vent to. I'm find comfort knowing our moms are at peace. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cathy Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Dear Deanna, I am so so sorry. I know how bad it hurts. Your mom is at peace now and doesnt have to suffer any more... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cindy RN Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, I am so sorry. I know how difficult this time is. Come back when you can. Love Cindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
J.C. Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, sorry about your loss, no words can cover the love a mother has for her children. prayers going for peace for all the family. J.C. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheresaKB Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that your Mom will be in my prayers. Please stay strong. Theresa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daggiesmom Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, So sorry to hear about your Mom. My prayers go out for you and your family. Joanie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Elaine Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 As a mother and as a daughter who lost her mother, I can tell you that a mother's love can not be replaced and so I know that my words can't do much for you. However, you can get through the pain and come out on the other side with new wisdom and hope and a good life ahead of you. Your mother lives on inside you and inside your children. Thinking of you and your family in this time of need. Elaine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fay A. Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna, Please accept my condolences on the loss of your Mother. I am so very sorry for your loss. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MO_Sugar Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 (((((Deanna))))), A gentle cyber hug and a prayer are all I can offer. I am so sorry to hear of your Mothers passing. God Bless, MO Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
natalie Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Deanna,I'm so sorry. I know your pain and experience so well. When I read your post my stomach felt the knots and sadness as if I had gone through it with you. I'm here for you if you need someone to vent to. I'm find comfort knowing our moms are at peace. Sorry Deanna, this was me, I thought I was logged in. PM me if you want to vent. Natalie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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