Dear Tammy,
I can so relate to how you feel. I lost my Mom Sept 20th and really haven't wanted to deal with anything since then. Of course, I keep pushing myself to do what I must, but it just feels like torture. We've also had our house torn up with the remodeling of our bathrooms since the 2nd week of October. Then with exactly 2 weeks to Christmas I found myself out digging in my yard then driving to Home Depot for pony packs of flowers.
I will say that the digging and pony packs was so what I needed! My Mom and I shared a huge passion for gardening and the area that I re-did that day was with her in mind.
Christmas this year will be nothing like the past and I will have to get used to that, like it or not, NOT, but I know she would want me to go on and enjoy the Holidays with my family. All I can do is to try and honor that.
I think your Dad would want the same for you. I know how hard it is, I'm struggling daily with it too so know your not alone with your feelings.
I hope and pray you can find some comfort and peace this Holiday season.
Patty