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God Has Kept Me Here for a Reason Repeat after me: God has kept me here for a reason. I survived because He has a plan for me. All my bad relationships, the addictions, the consequences, the bad credit, the repossessions, the death of my loved ones, the back-stabbing from my friends, the negative thoughts, or the lack of support; I made it because I am Blessed! I release and let go of all past hurts, misunderstandings and grudges because I am abundantly blessed! I recognize them as the illusions that they are, sent from the enemy to kill my spirit, steal my joy, and destroy my faith; for God is all there is. All else is a lie! Now give yourself a hug, wipe away your tears and walk in Victory!!! I love you but more importantly, God LOVES YOU best. Be blessed and know that you are one with the SPIRIT OF THE LIVING GOD! The Will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you. Amen!

Finally! After almost 4 years since treatment began, my cough is down to the tamest it has been. It rages and wanes constantly. It has a multiple personality disorder. Never know what is going to show up. If the coughing gets out of hand and keeps her up at night, if she starts to run a fever, if she has trouble breathing while lying down, if her sputum changes to disagreeable colors; these are reasons to call the doc. If she has had radiation within the last 6 months or so, she may have radiation pneumonitis which can spring up overnight and not show on yesterday's scans. It is a condition that can be deadly if left untreated, however, with proper medication, can be arrested. Good luck. Cindi o'h

Don, if you ever post when you are grumpy, you sure hide it well.... This post is purrrrrrrrrfect. Cindi o'h

Consider lc as a chronic illness now. There will be something in the little black bag for him. Hopefully, this next poison won't be as brutal on him. Sure do remember you. Cindi o'h

I have been drinking Mt. Dew! yes! almost exclusively since diagosis. Wouldn't touch it before. I eat white pasta, white bread, hamburgers with cheese, milk, green beans, tuna, steak, fish, chicken, cole slaw, chili, mashed potatoes n' gravy, anything and everything. I wish I could go back to my good eating habits that yielded a slimmer physique. Somehow whole grains, sans mayo, and sprouts have lost their appeal. I love popcorn. And pizza. I know I am going to dieter's hell when/if I ever die. Just know it. But I think that Dr. Evil will get me first with his bomb all the way from N. Korea. Until then, I seem doomed to eating nasty, yummy foods. Well, you asked about treatment and nutrition. Doctors will usually say eat, eat, eat. They don't want you to take any supplements without their approval. They don't seem to approve much. They want the cancer cells killed not fed. Is there a diagnosis yet? I am kind of concerned that you are putting the cart before the horse.... Cindi o'h

that IS good news, Jackie. Can you imagine??? Cindi o'h

Hi Joe, welcome to you! are you all through with your treatments now? What and where did they radiate? I am curious about your treatment. I think you said you had just one radiation treatment? (I think that's atypical) Where is your exactly is your disease, may I ask? What keeps your courage up? Cindi o'h

Hi Roberta, Just want to add my own welcome here. I can truly relate to what you said about not knowing you could survive the diagnosis of lc. It is amazing to me the strength and courage that resides deep inside each one of us. When we need it, it is there. You have truly found it, girl! again, Welcome! Cindi o'h

Oh yes, American Cancer Society will take wigs. They have a wig program they give out. I went there for a wig. They were all not for me...too blonde or too black... but I tried anyway. Cindi o'h

So very sorry. Cindi o'h

She lives in Kona. Captain Cook, to be exact. On the Big Island. I used to work with her. She was pregnant with her #3 when we met. What a ding-a-ling, I thought. She had a flat tire on the way to work and came waltzing in 3 hours late showing me the beautiful, rare flowers she had found on the side of the road...."Arrrgh! Get to work!!!...whataya, nuts?" (turns out she is...hehe) Anyway. No ice fishing. None. Her husband has a small fishing boat though. I caught a 26# Ono off it once. yummy. I always wanted to host him here in an ice house. He would love it. Especially spearing. Oh well. I will please take all shipping advice. I need it. love, Cindi

I might be moving back to Hawaii. My best friend there sent a voice mail yesterday with an invitation. Her mother passed away last week and she has a spare bedroom in her house for me. Michele is the friend who paid my way to meet her in Chicago last year. We had a great time even though I felt I slowed her down considerably. She is just the finest person. When they built their house 5 or so years ago, they built a separate Mom's quarters connected by a breezeway and brought her Mom from the mainland. I don't know HOW I will get there, but I will get there. Car, personal belongings, my poor body that doesn't travel well anymore....these are my worries of the day. Once I get there, it will be okay. The times I moved to Hawaii before, I carried my belongings in a 2 suitcases and a box. Those were the skinny days. Now....? How does one MOVE to Hawaii? I am clueless. Help! (please kokua) Cindi o'h

what is the name of that group asso. with goodwill. They have used durable equipment. It's not Easter Seals, is it? My brain's not working. You are sweet, Lori. Cindi o'h

Alexan, Remember that treating cancer is now considered treating a chronic disease. Whatever pops up, they have something that will usually knock it back down. Glad she has good care. Keep us informed on how she does. Cindi o'h

So very glad for you! Cindi o'h

Steven, I cannot venture how many xrays my lc showed on before anyone told me about it. And lc was in my familial med. hx.! A chiropractor told me that I needed to have it checked. I went to my G.P. and she took an xray again. I saw it on the film as did she. She did send it to have reviewed by a radiologist. The radiologist said "all clear". I told the doctor I wanted another read or a clearer view. She said "no, the radiologist is the expert. My advice to you is not to see any more chiropractors." I was shamed into compliance! Seven months later after another suspect cardiac/increase heart rate ER visit, the ER doc insisted on admitting me. I told her there is nothing wrong with my heart. Finally she said that there was something on the chest xray that didn't look quite right and she wanted to admit me for tests. "okay...I know what it is, let's see if it is bigger..." I looked at the film, and sure enough it had grown to 3 cm. (Actually 2 tumors next to each other.) I called the radiologist when I got the gutts. She said, " Why did you embarrass me by telling the staff that I missed the tumor?... yes, it is there. I am sorry, I don't know how I could have missed it." Long story short, I had several ER visits in the 2 years prior to dx. It was there every time. I had xrays at the asthma doctor. It was there on the films as well. Nobody told me. When I contacted an attorney, she told me that my case would be difficult as I would probably be dead by the time this all shook out. Also, that my treatment and outcome would be the same whether it was caught earlier or later. (!!!!!!) GRRRRR. I have tried so hard to put all of this behind me and practice forgiveness and "stuff happens", but your post brought it all back for me. This, to me, seems to be another example of how lc patients are not taken care of. Also, it makes me feel completely uncared for. What do they get paid to do? Good for you for finding legal representation. I hope he gets spanked, but good! Cindi o'h

Tina, Thanks for all of your great support to all of us, me included. You're one in a million, gal. We sure have been through alot, huh? I say, I'd like to propose a toast...er, roast!! lol, Tina! Let me be the first to say don't ever give your address to ol' loose lips Mynatt! lol... love to you and all of yours! Cindi o'h

Fantastic news. Whew! (she wipes the sweat from her brow) Cindi o'h

yesssssss! Cindi o'h

I get it. The lc treatment is all life encompassing. The treatment stops. Now what? We have been so used to doing "Something". Now we are doing nothing while we wait for the next scan. This is a tough time for so many of us, Jen. We feel like we aren't doing anything and want to be prepared for The something that may be lurking just around the corner. Truth be told, you all have done it all. Now, it's time to put efforts into letting go, and letting God. Put efforts into Living well. Good diet. All the colorful fruits and vegetables; are they on the plate? Cabbage family? Are they there? Walking, sunshine, lakes, streams and forests, are they what give you and your family joy? Trying to find your way back to trying to find purpose and meaning in daily living, and trying to keep the next scan on the calendar written in small letters instead of bold letters is a challenge for the toughest among us. Best to all of you. Cindi o'h

count me in, Tina. Cindi o'h

Your mom was so loved. Cindi o'h

I'm giddy! Your news started it off, it's the bubbles from the champagne that are finishing it! Over the top with excitement for you, Kasey. Cindi's

funny.. they disallow ©asino and (g)ambling and other words asso. with the action.

Gad Frank, I just hate that you have to go through this crap just for a whiz. Remember when it used to be so easy? I've got my own drain problems, so I know it isn't fun. Different than yours, but still no fun. Tests for me too, buddy. Cuts down on how many cans o'beer ya drink, huh? Don't you be cuttin' it off. Cindi o'h