cindi o'h Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Saw the surgeon yesterday. I didn't get all gussied up.. I was too tired...so clean is the best I could do. He wasn't his boyish little self yesterday either. In fact, all business and not too many boyish smiles. He said the words "multiple/ clustered lung nodules". This is the first I heard of this. I wish someone would give me a good case presentation right off the bat. I decided to go ahead and have a re-scan next month to check for growth or shrinkage. I don't want surgery and I sure as hell don't want chemo. My old body can't afford either on right now. So for now, I am not doing either. Doesn't matter if I change my mind , though. That's stil possibe. Cindi o'h Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Man Cindi, this sure came outta left field, didn't it? So....now "we" need to step back and look over this situation...possibly get a bit more info.... weigh options and go from there. Sorry you had to hear those words. They are doing a number in my mind at the moment as well. Try to stay calm and take your time before any final decisions are made. I am thinking of you, Cindi, and hoping you get some clarification soon. (((((CINDI))))) Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patkid Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Cindi........... We are here, we care and we are sincerely praying for better news. Love Brat Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Darn it... (Darn it is always such a huge understatement here...) That just sucks, Cindi. Praying for you, and as everyone said--we're behind you all the way. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 (((Cindi))), I don't think I like that surgeon. Where did this come from? I feel like I've just been punched in the stomach. Can only try to imagine how you must feel. Wish I knew something educated or intelligent to say. Are you thinking of another opinion? Did he give you a reccomendation ? You know I'm praying for you Cindi. I'm so sorry. There's got to be a plan in there somewhere to treat this. Will be waiting for the fighting Cindi to appear next. Love and Prayers, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maryanne Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Hi Cind, YUK, darn did not want to hear that. I guess if you want to wait and see if there is going to be any change, I could understand that. It is your decision. I will support anything you want to do. Don't shut your feelings down like you did in the past. We are here, let us share in your not so good news along with the good ones. Keep us posted on how you are handling this. I know feelings have a way of changing from day to day. Use us as a punching bag it you need too. Just don't keep those feelings bottled up inside. Not good... Many prayers going out to you. Hopefully your next scan will be better news. (((((CINDI)))) Maryanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 I hope they are bengin nodules and nothing more. I forgot, did you have a PET recently? Hang in there, good thoughts coming your way Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geri Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 All I can say is Aagh Craap!! Sorry to hear your news, stay strong and think positive. Will be rooting for you Geri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ellakc2 Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Hey Cindi, Your in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there girl. My sister has lived w/ nodules for yrs. Take care. Mare Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
J.C. Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Cindi, That is not what I wanted to read. Prayers going till you decide on your next step. Love J.C. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Larry Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Cindy i'm just at a loss for word's so all i am able to say is DARN DARN DARN ,,,,Larry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ginnyde Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Cindi, not what I wanted to hear, how are you doing? Did they tell you what this means? Can it be nothing? I hope, I hope, I hope. You are a fighter no matter what - your sense of humor alone is going to help but the most important thing is that degree in mixology that you have. Hang tough sweetie. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jang Posted June 9, 2005 Share Posted June 9, 2005 Cindy - I'm hoping that next months scan will be fine. A month is a long time to wait. Hang in there - I'll be praying for good news. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Haylee_38 Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Not the news I wanted to hear. Hoping and praying the nodules are benign. Hang in there and know my daily thoughts are with you. Haylee Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cindi o'h Posted June 10, 2005 Author Share Posted June 10, 2005 oh, no... I am fine.. mentally, anyway. I have had lung cancer for a long time. It don't scare me no more! I am SuperWoman!!! I am just hungering for more information. I mean, the only thing I can base my action or non-action on is information, and I really don't feel I have enough. I wonder if the pangs that I have attributed to my liver are now the area of the lung. I wonder about the sudden sleepiness I feel now and the need for the pillow are from these clusters.. I wonder when the weight is going to drop off. He said that whether we were to treat this "supposed lung cancer" now or a month from now would not make any or much difference. Like what does that mean? Either way my *ss is grass? Anyway, I know that I should "feel" scared, but I don't. I feel cautious... I feel like I have to think this though. I feel like I can't afford a feeling right now. (detaching) I feel like I need more information. Like a VATS?? and a biopsy? That would put an end to all this wondering wouldn't it? Cindi o'h Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TAnn Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Darn, Darn and Double Darn! I was hoping for good news on the infiltrate thing. Seems to me they must still be small if he is letting you get scanned again in a few weeks. That's a good thing. Just for the record, I've had "multiple nodules" in my left lung since diagnosis and they watch them w/every scan, but have remained pretty stable for the past 2 years. Something to think about, Cindi! TAnn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fay A. Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Thinking of you, Cindi, and hoping you get what you need to make an informed decision. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank Lamb Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Cindy,this is not what any of us wanted to hear.Now we'll have to drink bud lites and pray for all benign nodules. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cindi o'h Posted June 10, 2005 Author Share Posted June 10, 2005 I agree, Frank. Bud lites with my compadres (ya'll) right about now is the only way to go! That and chocolate donuts. Speaking of donuts...where is our British doughnut??? I am missing her and her e-Claire. Bust out the booze wagon... this is a dusty trail that needs friendship. One should not have to do this alone. Cindi o'h Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CharlieD Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Cindi, What up with this clustered nodule thingy? Where did this come from? Don't recall you having mentioned them before. You got enough on your plate. Hope and pray they can get to the bottom of it quickly. In the meantime, keep the bar open. Kasey wants to buy me a more respectable drink than I'm used to, so Kasey, just a Labatts Blue Light. Thanks for keeping me straight. CharlieD Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nushka Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Cindi, Like everyone else said, This is NOT what I wanted to hear either and I know its not what you wanted to hear. This will be a long month for you and all of us with you. I pray that it turns out to be nothing, but that word "cluster" is blowing my mind. We need a party really soon. As long as you feel like it we will continue to meet at your bar...then if you don't feel like it you can go to bed while WE meet at your bar. Prayers for you every day. Nina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
karenl Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Cindi Hope this turns out to be nothing to worry about. Will be holding you close in thought, Love Karen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kel M Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Cindi, Just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong. Kel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KarHart Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Cindi, This just stinks! Hoping and praying they just go away by next month. Karen H Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
terriep Posted June 10, 2005 Share Posted June 10, 2005 Cindy - My thoughts and prayers are with you now as always - I'm not much of a drinker, but would throw back a nice cold iced tea right about now - if that's a bar selection! (I think it would wash down the chocolate donuts!) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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