It's official ... progression

[TracyD]

Yes, it's true ... cancer really sucks. The primary tumor is definitely growing and there are now nodules in my left lung (what I previously considered the "good" lung). The growth is small, but it is no longer questionable.

We are moving on to Alimta, had my first infusion today. We were given the choice of waiting until next week, but we're not giving this stupid thing another day to grow. Compared to the carbo/taxol/avastin infusion alimta is a breeze, five hours versus 10 minutes. I can feel the cancer dying (again) already.

We've got a lot of plans this weekend with good friends, you know, the kind of people that will let me sit on a couch and wait on me hand and foot if needed.

I feel that I'm in a much better place starting chemo this time than last, I'm not as panicky. I asked my doc how many chemos there are to try and he told me that there are lots and that I would run out of patience before we ran out of chemos to try ... I told him I have a LOT of patience.

My last treatment lasted 10 months, I figure, if I can get that out of Alimta that will get me to two years, and by then there will something new to try.

Have a good night all, thanks for being here.

Tracy

[Jyoung20]

This is definately not the news I wanted to hear but with your strength..this stupid cancer doesn't have a chance!!

God's Peace!

J

[Ry]

Crap Tracy. I am sorry that combo wasn't the magic bullet. John was on Alimta. It made him pretty tired- but it was doable and it worked. I wish the same for you.

[Andrea]

Suck a duck, cancer really stinks However I love your attitude and I am so glad they are moving fast with your treatment. I hope to only hear good things from now on.

[Don Wood]

Tracy, I am sorry about the growth, but glad there are things to try, and love your positive attitude. That will take you far. Best to you. Don

[MsC1210]

Tracy

Sorry to hear about the progression but very glad to hear the next line of treatment is under way. Praying that this one is THE one.

Sending lots of postive thoughts your way,

Christine

[Connie B]

Not good news of course, but I gotta tell you Tracy, they really have come a long ways with all the new chemo's. They only had about 5 kinds when I was first dx.d. So maybe one of these little drugs may just be the bullet that kicks this crud out of your system.

I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong and have a GREAT WEEKEND! Sounds like My kind of Friends! Enjoy!

[Kasey]

We havent' talked recently and I was just SO hoping that you could just 'forget' about this for, at least, a little while. Somehow, I didn't want to be the 'reminder' about LC. I will call you pretty darn soon, that's for sure. And don't forget to send all this latest news to Bethesda. Ya never know!

Tracy, I am down and angry and disappointed and so many other things all at the same time. We support you and love you and damn it...............why can't that be enough?

Your support system is outta this world. Your husband is the 'best' there is. Sure wish you weren't given this hurdle to jump, but jump it you will. Remember, we are here 24/7. And we love you.

Aunt Kasey

[raneyf]

Sorry about the progression, but way to "move-on". Glad you can feel the cancer dying - I love that feeling! I'm thankful the Alimta seems easy so far. Hope it continues that way for you. Have a great weekend and let those cancer cells die!

[Treebywater]

Darn it, Darn it, Darn it Tracy....

I hope the Alimta blasts the cancer to smithereens and that this is the last time you will hear the 'p' word.

[carolhg]

Hated to read about the progression. You are a fighter and have the right attitude. I will be saying prayers of support and healing for you.

Carol

[Wendy]

Grrrrrr, Prayers that Alimta is the magic bullet!

Wendy

[Sheri]

As your Dear Aunt Kasey said: Damn it!

I hope you find the right chemo to keep it stable. Read Mr. Ry's profile if you already haven't. He's been dealing with this horrid disease for what Ry, five years now? You just have to maintain a step ahead. With your determined attitude, my guess, you can do it! Best of luck Tracy, you're a doll.

[chloesmom]

Hi Tracy,

I'm sorry to read the results of your CT weren't what we had hoped, but I gotta love your attitude going into this next round.

Many, many hopes from me that Alimta will be the magic bullet, and bless your onc for having all kinds of backup plans.

Good luck to you,

Cindy

[Bev'sSister]

Tracy..I don't know..somehow I think the Altima is going to do the trick for you. Keep imagining that cancer disappearing and it will. Stay positive!

Love ya,

Bobby

[wendyr]

Tracy, add me to the list wishing you all the best and hoping this is the chemo that knocks that lousy cancer out. Have a great weekend and let those friends wait on you Good Luck & God Bless

wendyr

[shineladysue]

Tracy,

Been looking for an update from you. I'm so sorry to read about the progression. I am however so glad to see that you haven't lost your fighting spirit. Want you to know that you have my prayers to go with your chemo. God Bless.

Love,

Sue

[patscan]

The cancer IS already dying.....sending thoughts of abundant health your way. Candy

[wondermom]

I am sorry about the progression. Keep your chin up and keep fighting! Sounds like your attitude is in a great place. Praying for you and your family and for better times ahead.

[sharonjo]

Tracy,

So sorry to hear that your disease has progressed. I know how that feels. It seems you and I have been on a similar treatment plan. Unfortunately, I did not respond to Alimta, and am now on Taxotere (sister drug to Taxol). I really feel the cancer dying as you say with this drug. Hope the Alimta works well for you. If it doesn't, there are plenty more drugs to try like your onc says! I'm keeping you in my prayers.

God Bless,

Sharon

[dscherer]

I to am very sorry to hear of your latest hurdle, but I believe attitude changes everything and you have such an incredible fighting spirit. Keep your faith and keep fighting!!!

Enjoy your friends and family,

You are in my prayers,

Dana

[Mendy]

Tracy,

I am sorry that you have another hurdle to jump. With your attitude and strength and the love from your beautiful family, I know you will get through this. Thank goodness for so many options.

Mendy

[gail]

To put with your fighting attitude . . .

Give em Hell Harry!!!

How about Barbra Striesand's "Don't Bring Around a Cloud to Rain on My Parade"

Have you read any Bernie Siegel? Besides "Love, medicine and Miracles" he has "How to Live Between Office visits" and "How to Be an Exceptional patient"

thinking of you

gail

[Suzie Q]

Sorry to hear about the progression, but happy you downed your chemo "cocktail" with aggression and determination!

Go give cancer h e double toothpicks!

[ursol]

Tracy,

I'm soo sorry to hear this news but you definitely have the right attitude. Your oncologist sounds like mine. He told me Tuesday after discussing the liklihood that I have progression (will know more tomorrow) that there are still sooo many chemo's to try. We just need to be confident that they will find what works. Call me when you feel up to it and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Lilly