Randy, Thanks for posting what many are thinking. I have been here from the beginning, and on several earlier versions of the site, and the feeling of devastation each time a loss hits doesn't go away.
But early on, as a newcomer, I remember feeling like a truck ran over me. I was almost ready to leave the group--couldn't handle seeing people suffer.
So I would go away for a bit, and return later. This is the one place I feel comfortable sharing the anxiety of this disease, and I need the support found here.
So for those of you thinking you have to leave, it is too hard, take a break. There is nothing wrong with that.
We are here
gail