Debi Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Well, tomorrow it will be exactly 3 years since my surgery and the confirmation that I had lung cancer. Every year seems to be a different ‘theme’, my first year was fear- My second year was gratitude. The theme of my 3rd year would have to be ‘moving on’. I am no longer scared, I no longer treat every day with wonder that I am still here, although I do have my moments. In some ways I feel like I have wasted the last 3 years worrying, so afraid to move forward, stuck in some sort of cancer vacuum, surviving cancer but not really- allowing it to still occupy too much room in my head. I healed physically, but never really was able to fully heal mentally from the uncertainty it had introduced to my life. But it’s time to move on now. I have been thinking of buying a house, it looks like I finally have the possibility of getting a great, new job, and at the same time the opportunity has come to advance in my old one. I have choices, I have options –ME!!! I survived my cancer, and I have choices in life. And I am ready to take them and move on to better things because I finally, truly believe I can plan a future. Wow. How awesome is that?? As hard as it has been sometimes on this board, being here has made these past 3 years easier than it ever would have been without you all, I could never leave. Again, thanks from my heart to all of you for walking along with me, through all our good times and bad. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Congratulations on your three year anniversary. I am so glad that life is going well and you may soon be a home owner--too cool. Good luck with whichever job you decide on, can't wait to hear about it. Good luck Debi. Rochelle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jyoung20 Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Way to go!!!! Here's to many, many more!!! GOD BLESS!! Jamie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaffie Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Wow Debi, Congrats on the 3 years and congrats on your positive attitude You're a great person, I'm happy things are falling into place for you Kathy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Go, Debi! Congratulations! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Well, Debi, I am going to be ready for MY year 3 and the 'movin on' part. Year one for me was fear.......just like you. Year two....this year...........I am grateful. So year three sounds awesome. Congratulations and will see you real soon! Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Muriel Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Congratulations, Debi. Three years ago, I thought it was iffy if either of us would be around now. Really worried about you not having chemo. Well, we both made the right decision. So, get on with your life! But don't forget us here. We need you. Muriel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nushka Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Debi, Congratulations. You are doing great. I know the feeling of thinking I have wasted some good time. We all do the best we can do and deal with whatever we must. Pat yourself on the back. I think you are great. Nina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don M Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Debi: congratulations! go forth and live. Don M Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cindi o'h Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Debi. I am grinning from ear to ear as I read your post. You are so honest and good about finding the words to express what is going on with you. These years have not been in waste I can tell you that. It was as it was meant to be, in my opinion. Celebrate with a diet coke? love, Cindi o'h Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ginnyde Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Debi, I am happy to hear you say that cancer is just a part of your life not the whole of your life and is now becoming just one more thing that has shaped the person you have become. Wow, a homeowner. Lots of care and feeding, but no better feeling than owning your own home. Enjoy life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TracyD Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Contratulations! Here's to many, many more years. Tracy. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melindasue37 Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 What an uplifting post....and I'm so happy for you. Good luck on the new job and house. I'd say you definately deserve to have all these new opportunities in your life. Congratulations Debi!!!! Warm Hugs, Melinda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail p-m Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Congratulations, Debi. You go girl! Enjoy that choice of jobs and find yourself a great home!!! You deserve -- as someone (was it Don M?) said, "Go forth and live!" Sounds like wonderful advice. gail p-m Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank Lamb Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Debi,congratulations on the three year mark.I am very,very happy you are making your new theme move on. I'm also very glad you have everything looking up in life and work.Once you own your new home you will be so busy you won't have much time to worry about the cancer thing. If anyone deserves a much rewarding breath of fresh air in life it is you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chloesmom Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Debi, Many, many congratulations on your 3 year mark! Awesome, isn't it? (Mine is officially next week, June 20). I'm totally in tune with what you've been feeling these past three years and happy that you're in such a good place right now. We'll have a toast in Texas next month, ok? Cindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geri Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Congratulations on moving on, 3 years is a wonderful landmark to reach. I finding that the longer I go on the more cancer is receding to where sometimes it seems almost an unreal part of my past. Go knock 'em dead with your positive attitude and good luck house hunting. Geri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marym Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Debi, Congrats! Stay positive and go for it! Even one day is too much to waste! Mary Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dadstimeon Posted June 16, 2006 Share Posted June 16, 2006 Congratulations Debi! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nonni Posted June 19, 2006 Share Posted June 19, 2006 Debi....what a wonderful inspiring post...you are gifted with words that mean so much girlfriend...you write so beautifully... A big big congrat's on your 3 yr mark with so mannyyyy more to go...you are a big inspiration to all of us... I just loved when you said time to 'move on' ...this attutude is just awesome...Good luck on your choice of job's...I know you will make the right decision...and a new home to boot...Life is good...God is better....hugs...PamS. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ztweb Posted June 19, 2006 Share Posted June 19, 2006 Debi, Awesome! That is all I can say...awesome! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted June 19, 2006 Share Posted June 19, 2006 Congratulations!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Littlegirl Posted June 20, 2006 Share Posted June 20, 2006 I'm Movin On Rascal Flats I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons finally content with a past I regret. I've found you've found strength in your moments of weakness, for once I'm at peace with myself. I've been burdened with blame trapped in the past for too long I'm movin' on. I've lived in this place and I know all the faces each one is different but there always the same. they mean me no harm but its time that I face it; they'll never allow me to change. But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong I'm movin' on. I'm movin' on, at last I can see (at last I can see) life has been patiently waiting for me and I know there's no guarantees. but I'm not alone. There comes a time, in everyone's life when all you can see are the years passing by and I have made up my mind that those days are gone. I've sold what I could and packed what i couldn't, Stopped to fill up on my way out of town I've love like I should but lived like I shouldn't; I had to loose everything to find out; Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road; I'm movin on. I'm movin on I'm movin on. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EastCoastLadi Posted June 20, 2006 Share Posted June 20, 2006 Debi, You go girl!!!! Keep up that great attitude, it makes me smile to read about your challenges and changes in your life.. Grace Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carolhg Posted June 20, 2006 Share Posted June 20, 2006 Thank you for your post. I am just approaching my first year since surgery. Scans have all been great, but I know what you mean about the fear. I too am very grateful as I am about to start my second year. Thank you for your post it was a great eye opener and inspiration for me. I pray that God continues to Bless you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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