Nutbar Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 Mom is gone. The cancer took her 37 hours ago. I'm not sure how to feel. It's been such a long road for everyone, including her, and right now I sort of feel relieved. I feel bad saying that and I'm crying as I write this but I can't help the way I feel. She hasn't been my mom for months now, since the cancer started affecting her brain so badly. I mean, yes she was still my mom and I loved her but it wasn't the mom I knew. I couldn't talk to her or make any sense of what she was saying. The last week she didn't wake up hardly at all. A couple of times a day her eyes would half open for a few seconds but she didn't really seem like she was there. Three days before she died, when I was saying goodnight to her, she pucker up her lips to give me a kiss and after I kissed her she smiled. She never opened her eyes but I know she was aware. It was the last response she gave anyone. Tonight is visitation at the funeral home and tomorrow is the memorial service. I wanted to get this out before I went because I have to be strong for my dad. xx Nutbar Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 I am so sorry for your loss. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EastCoastLadi Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 (((Nutbar))) I am so sorry to hear about your mom. Please know I am sending my prayers your way today. Your mom is at peace, the cancer can't harm her anymore... Grace Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mamasbabygirl Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 Oh Nutbar. I am so sorry that she is gone from you. You and I and our moms walked a simlilar path and I know that all of the time and dedication you spent on and with your mom will comfort you going forward. It has me. Our moms have earned their wings of bravery and we have learned what it means to have courage, compassion and love. It is so hard to say goodbye...(((((((NUTBAR))))))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kreed70 Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 ((Nutbar)) I am so, so sorry. I'll be praying. Kelly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 My heartfelt sympathies. You have nothing to feel guilty about -- your mom is at peace. I also was relieved when my wife passed almost 8 weeks ago because I knew she was at peace. I wish you strength for the next days. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don M Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 Nutbar. please accept my conmdolences Don M Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharyn Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 I am so sorry .... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nick C Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 Nutbar, I am SO sorry. Three days before she died, when I was saying goodnight to her, she pucker up her lips to give me a kiss and after I kissed her she smiled. You clearly brought her great joy. This brought tears to my eyes. I'm just so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Martha02 Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 I am so sorry for your lost. Be strong! I know is so hard to get through the wake and funeral. Take care of yourself! Martha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 I am just so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MsC1210 Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 Nutbar My sincere sympathies and condolences to you and your family. I am so sorry. Chris Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carolhg Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 I am so very sorry for your loss. Prayers Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharonjo Posted November 11, 2006 Share Posted November 11, 2006 Nutbar, I am so very sorry for your loss. I will keep your family in my prayers. Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted November 12, 2006 Share Posted November 12, 2006 So sorry to hear this news. Prayers and condolences. Do whatever comes to you. Keep an eye on your Dad. Be careful driving. Grief hits at strange times. Do not get the coulda woulda shouldas. Take care of yourself and each other. Prayers and Big warm blankets for comfort tonite. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TamHol Posted November 12, 2006 Share Posted November 12, 2006 Hi Nubar, I'm so sorry for your loss .............. relief is something very reasonable ... relief from worry, wondering and reacting to anothers pain. It's exhausting and overwhelming .... don't feel badly for knowing all of these are at rest. May your memories give you warmth and comfort in this time of need. Tammy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pammie Posted November 12, 2006 Share Posted November 12, 2006 May God give you peace in the days ahead. Your mom is at peace and out of pain. God blesss you. pammie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jyoung20 Posted November 12, 2006 Share Posted November 12, 2006 I am so sorry about the loss of your mother. You and your family are in my prayers. GOD BLESS!! Jamei Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Welthy Posted November 13, 2006 Share Posted November 13, 2006 Nutbar, Please accept my sincere sympathy on the loss of your Mom. God be with you. Welthy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dchurchi Posted November 13, 2006 Share Posted November 13, 2006 Alan and I are very sorry for the loss of your mom. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
michelepal Posted November 13, 2006 Share Posted November 13, 2006 I'm so so sorry! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trish2418 Posted November 13, 2006 Share Posted November 13, 2006 Please accept my condolences. Trish Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted November 13, 2006 Share Posted November 13, 2006 Nutbar, I am so very sorry for your loss. Knowing someone you love is not suffering any more is a relief. I can remember that feeling when Mike passed. May God be with you and your family in the days ahead. Love and Prayers, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mskim Posted November 13, 2006 Share Posted November 13, 2006 I am so sorry... remember that kiss. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shirleysgirl Posted November 14, 2006 Share Posted November 14, 2006 Nutbar, I'm so very sorry about the loss of your mother. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Susan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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