Dear Joni, I sure don't have any wise answers, and there are lots of others who have been where you are here and can probably give you better comfort, but I wanted to say my heart aches for you, and that you need time to begin to figure out how to go on with your life and keep your Dear Roberts memory alive for Alex. None of us really understands this stuff, and I can't imagine how angry it must make you when you think of the things that might have helped if they had not been overlooked! Please know you are in my prayers, as is Alex, and I will stop right now and say a specific one for you to feel God's support and comfort today.
Love,
Nell