I had such a good dream last night. Everything was as it was now... DH out, Carolyn here, me here instead of the Northwest... This time of year. But Mom was here too. And she wasn't sick. We were watching football games, and sitting in our old seats around the table, and she was smiling and having fun and walking my Mom's walk instead of my grandmothers as she did those last few months.
I was about to go out to a class, and I was trying to make sure it was ok that I left Carolyn with Mom and Dad... And Mom said, "Well Val... i'm here. I can't watch Carolyn..... but I'm here." And I nodded and went to get ready. And it hit me what she meant when I got back to Carolyn's room, and she was there... so I looked at her and said, "You're here!" And gave her a great big hug... Cause I got it. She's HERE.
And so I think she really must be here. And that makes me feel good. As did that hug. It was the first GOOD dream I've had about her since she died. The rest have been terrible nightmares. This one I think was a gift and reassurance to me, and I'm so grateful.
Just wanted to share.