Nick C Posted January 7, 2007 Share Posted January 7, 2007 2 weeks before Mom was diagnosed Keri and I wanted to start trying to have a baby...things went on the back burner. Well,Keri might be pregnant...Dr. says "questionable" (cramping etc) but the test says yes. Even if this doesn't work out (we are being realistic) we would never have hesitated to tell our mothers. My mother would have been here all day today. She would have been smiling ear to ear. This is all she ever wanted. To touch my wife's pregnant belly, to hold a grandchild. And she doesn't get to do that. And I am just so angry about that I can't put it into words. I'm angry ANYONE else get's to experience our child some day and she won't. I'm angry that I don't know anyone who when they enter a room, children forget everone else is there like my mother could do. I'm angry because I don't have anyone to call just to tell. I'm angry because my Mother was never able to brag about becoming or being a grandmother. I'm angry I'll never have a picture of my child and Gram. I'm so devastated tonight. This wasn't right. I'm angry at myself for waiting to have kids. I'm angry I'm feeling this sorry for myself. I'm pretty much missing her a lot today. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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