Guest Phyllis Posted June 8, 2004 Share Posted June 8, 2004 I am down here in Mississippi. I saw Dr. Schwartz, Dr. Sewell's assoc., with high expectations. My CT scans were stable. In Feb. I swear Dr. Schwart was under the impression that I had done all the chemo I could do and was ready to do rfa on my lung tumors knowing there were 12 of them all together. I saw him today. He said there was heavy mediastinal involvement now and he and Dr. Sewell thought that it would kill me to do rfa. You know this was a risk I was willing to take in Feb. and now. I jumped through their hoops. I went back to Chicago and did carbo/taxol and one part of gemzar. I came back and now it is like well you have lived well and sorry chemo really doesn't work for you dose it? We know you are amazingly healthy but oh well. I am devastated. I just got my daugther into college. I was looking forward to my life now. I have ran myself into the ground to do everything I needed to do. This is it. I have to except it. I am the walking dead at 49. I am angry and hate everyone who doesn't have cancer. I am now ugly and I wasn't before this. Help me get through this. How do I change it? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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