Debi Posted April 21, 2007 Share Posted April 21, 2007 Just wanted to share that today is my son's 8th birthday. While that normally is a reason to get birthday cake and celebrate for most folks, for me, like so many others in our group, it carries all the weight in the world. It's not only a time to rejoice, but a time to reflect. My 'shadow' was found on my lung in January 03, and I had to wait until June to have it removed. However, in April, a week before Eric's birthday I found out from a follow up CT that the nodule was growing, and that it was most likely cancer. I remember trying not to think about my son in this new scheme of things, when I thought about him losing me, I couldn't even breathe- I was so afraid for him. He was 3 years old and he needed me so much. His 4th birthday came the end of the month, and all I wanted was to live until September, and see him start pre-school. I kept thinking that the more days I put under our belts so to speak, the better the chance he would have of remembering something about me, when I was gone. Well, I lived to see him start pre-k, and then Kindergarten, and 1st grade, and this past year, 2nd grade. In September, I will see him start THIRD grade! (notice I left out the maybe-I have come far!) Anyway, that's all I wanted to share. I may have not solved world hunger in the last almost 4 years, but I know my presence here has made a big difference in a little guy's life. And as we celebrate the 5th birthday together since our lives changed, I had to take a moment to share my gratitude with the only people that understnad it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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