Dear ((( Angie))))
I know your pain all too well..I remember when my dad asked me about funeral arrangements...
We were in target parking lot waiting for my mom to come out..He looked at me with his beautiful hazel eyes and said " Cat do you think we can talk, I really need to know this" he started to tell me things he wanted, my heart sank when he was talking..I kept praying to God to please give me strength to get through this conversation...
He said if it upset me he wouldnt talk about it..I told him it was okay..When we were done I told him I would check into the questions he had...His eyes lit up and he smiled, he was so relieved...
Thankfully I have a husband who took over from that point and helped him to arrange his final resting place..He even took him there to see it, because thats what my selfless dad wanted..
My point is Angie let your dad do this it will take a load off his mind, just keep praying and you will find the strength, I know you will..
You are absolutely not one bit selfish, you love your dad and its hard so very hard... XO