wondermom Posted September 9, 2007 Share Posted September 9, 2007 I can't even believe I am writing here. My mom passed yesterday afternoon around 3:00. She was surrounded by me, my dad, my brother and sister, her parents, and other family. We were there for her last breath and it took our breath away too. We knew this day was coming but when it happened we just couldn't believe she was gone. How are we supposed to go on? She was our family stone...our rock. My Dad is beside himself. He keeps saying he is helpless without her. She did everything for him. This will be an enormous adjustment for him. Now we are planning a funeral. We don't have anything for mom to wear. Nothing has been prepared. Mom wanted to do that a couple months ago but Dad didn't want to think about it because at that time she was doing pretty well. Now he wishes he would have. They were sole mates. I listened as my dad told mom about that first night they were married. He said he woke up the next morning and reached over for her to make sure it wasn't a dream. To make sure she was really his and by his side. He said the past few days he had been doing that again. Reaching for her...making sure she was still there. Now she won't be there. Not in the same way. My heart is breaking. Mom was so strong. Even when she was so out of it. She must have known we were all in the room crying because she briefly came out of it and looked around. She saw us all crying and she said, "Come on now guys, hold it together. It will be okay." She was always looking out for us...loving us. It is such a mixed emotion. I am relieved that she is at peace and not in pain anymore, but I still want her here with us. I will miss her always. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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