Carleen Posted June 30, 2006 Share Posted June 30, 2006 My Precious Keith Alan Kubesch, joy of my life, reason for being and light of my existence has passed away Thursday June 29th 9:45 AM at the age of 34. We had just made it home from the hospital the afternoon before, and hospice was schedule to come in at 11AM Thursday morning. They didn't make it on time. Around him were his mother, father, grandmother, uncle, best friend, my sister, and me. He was breathing heavily and sort of articulating as he breathed, and we said a prayer over him and he quieted down during the prayer. I thought it was a sign that God was comforting him that he was calmer as we prayed. After the prayer ended I opened my eyes to see him take a deep breath then he opened his eyes wide and never breathed again. It wasn't God bring him the comfort the way I thought, it was God taking him away from me. I can't post much more about it now because the pain is too great. I am swathed in darkness, every breath I draw is agony and there is no escape. Everywhere I turn I see bits of him and am reminded I will never see him again. I hate being home, but I don't know if I can go elsewhere. I just don't know what t do. Even coming on the computer I log in under a Keith Kubesch account. I am willing my heart to stop beating because every heart beat is accompanied by a knife wound in my chest, but it continues. I want my Keith back, I want to go to him, I don't care... I just want to be with him again to put my arms around him and feel his warm kisses again. I will never be loved so greatly again. I have truly lost. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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